Giornale #3- Santa Maria in Trastevere

Like a camera in a movie my eyes panned up from the sidewalk, to the magnificent

elephant obelisk by Bernini, to the enchanting golden shimmer of the mosaic frieze

atop of the Church of Santa Maria in Trastevere.

In the doorway, however, I was stopped by a beggar woman, hunched over, carrying

a can, asking passersby for just a coin so she could have dinner. I dropped a Euro in

her can as I passed her, and walked into the church.

As we entered, we learned that mass was going on at the moment. People sat in

pews strewn throughout the nave of the church listening to the priest conduct mass.

He sang like silk, his voice echoing through the pristine halls of the church, bouncing

off each ionic column, soft and velvet as the ceiling. The church prayed together, in

families or by themselves, committing themselves to the community of those like them.

Together their voices rose from the ashes to the sky, floating through the regal, magnificent

setting, sending their wishes to God.

The golden mosaic outside was nothing compared to what I would see inside the church.

Every single one of the church and basilica ceilings has impressed me without fail, but

never had I seen one so “bedazzled” as this one. The ceilings were covered in gold and

royal colors, deep blues and reds and greens with golden Catholic symbols strewn

throughout.

The marble statues blended in with the pastel wall paintings along the aisles, contrasted

by darker saint portraits hanging in gold frames along them. The gold in the frames

connected the walls to the ceiling in a gaudy sense, connecting riches to riches, customized

magnificent portraits surrounded by elaborate golden frames honoring church-goers

surrounded by the golden riches of the church. The pastel wall paintings are no less grand

than the ceiling, though they are less decked in gold. The pinks and blues in the portraits

create a heavenly light alongside the shine of the sun through the windows.

While tracing my steps against the walls, I happened upon a surprise- a gift shop. I was

surprised to see a place of worship selling such extravagant gifts such as a €100 nativity

set. As soon as I stepped foot in the gift shop, I was instinctively a cynic, immediately

brushing off the gift shop as a way to further the wealth of the Catholic church, though I

don’t actually know exactly what the money goes to.

After encountering the woman begging for scraps outside the church again on my way out,

to see such a blatant flex of wealth on the population from the Catholic church, who preaches

abandonment of worldly possessions, made me feel sick to my stomach. While walking through

the streets of Rome, I saw so many homeless people begging for money so that they could

eat that day, and it made me extremely uncomfortable to be in a place that resembled a palace

that was meant to be a place of worship and helping others. With the money that the church

needs to maintain their art and the glitz and the glamour in a week they could feed multiple

families that really need it. Within the church they could house many of the people that were

sleeping on the street. Honestly, I’ve never felt fully comfortable in a church, but this moment

was truly unsettling, more so than any other.

Giornale #2 - Stadium of Domitian

The museum which holds the Stadium of Domitian is unassuming to the eye. I had walked

past the entranceway a couple times already, never even suspecting that I was standing

on top of such immense history.

After purchasing a ticket, I descended down the stairs and walked straight into antiquity. I saw
arches and full structures from the original stadium, old art everywhere, and signs teaching
me more than I ever thought I’d know about a single building from nearly 2,000 years ago. I

felt like I myself was a Roman in imperial times.

As someone who has been fascinated by classics essentially my entire life, this experience

was far from usual. The closest to full immersion that I had ever before felt could be found

in novels inserting ancient mythology into the world that I knew, like reading Percy Jackson

as a little kid. For the first time, in the Stadium of Domitian, practically alone among the ruins,

I felt like I was the one being transported through time.

Though we were technically in a museum, because I was surrounded by original walls, it

felt so much more immersive than that. To be able to touch the brick as I passed by felt unreal,

I was in awe at the size and the stature of these artifacts that had survived for so long.

One part that struck me in particular was a set of stairs, surrounded by two walls, leading

to an archway. The fact that this piece of the stadium, which I assumed to be an entrance

to the seating for the events, had survived for so long together was miraculous to me. Though

there was a large hole in the middle of the steps, the fact that these weren’t fragmented

otherwise came as a shock to me. Staring at these steps, I was able to lose myself in

wonder.

I wondered who walked these exact stairs so many years ago, wondering if they would ever

think that students two thousand years in the future would be thinking about them. I could

see myself, walking through ancient Rome, through the crowds in the stadium, on my way

to see a wrestling match or a foot race. I imagined the people I would see, emperors, priests,

vestal virgins, and common folk coming together to celebrate athletics, in the same ways that

we do today for sporting events.

I had only visited this museum a few days into the trip, I wasn’t used to being able to have

such a thorough experience with the pieces. To be able to look upon the stairs that the

emperor Domitian had ordered to be built in the year 80 CE, not just a model or an image

online… I felt like I was dreaming. I had no idea what would be in store for me for the rest of

this trip, nor the feelings that I could experience while walking amongst magnificent structures

I had treated for so long like vocabulary words. The Stadium of Domitian was only the start.

Ekphrasis #2

From afar, her hair drapes her shoulders, over her chest.

Her shadows blend her in with the background.

Her hair, braided, twirls her crown with majesty.

Unseen, the snake rears its head towards her breast,

held up by her hand for venom.

Eyebrows thin, lips pale, her already dead eyes look saintly up to heaven,

ready to join in with the reaper’s embrace.

Her lover is dead, and soon she will be too.

Cleopatra VII Thea Philopator,

Queen of Egypt,

Of the Ptolemaic dynasty,

Mother of four,

Lover of Romans,

Of age 39,

Found dead by her own hand,

may she rest in power.

(Painting: "Cleopatra" by Jacopino del Conte)

Voyeur #2

“Tre… due… uno!” Her father yelled, uncovering his eyes, looking around.  She giggled

from inside a nearby bush, seeing his feet walk by her as he wondered aloud “Where could

she be?”, but she could never give up her hiding spot. You could never give up your hiding

spot in Hide & Seek, or else what kind of game would that be?

Uncovering a large leaf, he found her- busted this round. She knew one day she would

best him- maybe today was that day. Cursing her father’s detective skills as eloquently as

a three year old might, she turned away from him and began to count down from 10, giving

him the chance to hide now. She heard his heavy shoes on the cobblestone run away from

her, and he was gone. She had nothing to fear, however- she was going to be a detective

and solve the case.

Searching under leaves and branches for clues, she searched for her father. Deep into her

evidential analysis of the scene, she found a key clue: his hair was peeking out from a

corner of the statue. Victory.

“I found you!” She yelled, running over to her father, wrapping her arms around his legs.

“Now it’s your turn!”

This time, she would be no such fool to try to hide under a plant, no- she had figured out

the perfect hiding spot. Out of sight of her father, out of sight of the bystanders around the

piazza, a way to turn invisible. As her father began to count down, she ran out of sight as

fast as she could, to the other side of the statue, sat down, and closed her eyes. If she

couldn’t see him, he definitely couldn’t see her.

Her plan was thwarted again. He crept around the corner of the statue of Cavour, finding

her, picking her up, and spinning her in a circle with him. As they returned around the other

side of the statue, an older man in yellow approached the duo, two water bottles in hand.

He handed one to the little girl, and one to the father. The father grabbed her scooter and

helmet, as the older man grabbed the hand of the girl, and the trio walked out into the abyss

together.

One day she would be the champion of hide and seek. She could feel it in her bones; she

was meant for this. However, today was not that day.